A month ago The Lord took my mama from me and things have just been hard. The thought of never being able to see her beautiful face again hurts me to the core. Everyday I want to break down and cry but I can’t because I’ve gotta be strong for my younger sister and little brother. I’ve gotta be a big girl and take care of what needs to be done in her absence but I don’t think people understand how uneasy this shit really is. To know that I’ll never get to apologize for not appreciating you the way I should have or for being so angry at you for so soo sooo many years not even taking in to the fact that you only get one mama and one day someway everyone on this earth has to go at sometime. Forever is promised to noone. Things just happened so quickly, still has me twisted wondering what ifs. Maybe we should have said no chemo but then we may still have been asking what if. I guess what’s meant to be will be you were sent here for a reason, I guess mission accomplished and it was time to go home. I’m not really sure this whole thing still has me question my belief from time to time because I just don’t understand. I wish I could have just spent a little more time and showed you just a little more appreciation. Mommy you’ll forever be in my heart. I love and miss you. Sleep In Peace Crazy Lady.